In the last hours of my 21-year-old-hood-dom I came to realize very few new things. I'm finally in Brooklyn with Nicky. I'm going home on Monday, and it gives me the heeby jeebies...
Before I begin, I must warn that it is the morning and I'm pants-free in a state of half-asleep-wine-o-delirium. I just happen to feel like I have a lot on my mind, which could very well prove to be about nothing.
I'm excited to hang out with my mom. Yes, mom, that's a shout out. I'm mostly just amped to not have to pack and re-pack my back pack every three days or so and mosey on. There are still plenty of days for venturing. Mostly, I try to focus on today.
A huge part of me wants to say "Screw you" to the world, but there's that same part that wants to say "Bring it on." I'm feeling like I don't care what is being asked of me because I can give so much. The struggle of always wanted to do stuff for other people has been resolved. Constantly making people happy is what it's about, but I'll take my own route, thank you very much.
njktyyyyyyyyy... haha that's what Nicky's kitty had to say about things. ADORABLE.
Justine asked me what I learned from my trip and whether I felt like I changed or not. It will be clear to everyone at home that I haven't changed, we all pretty much know who I am. I know all ya'll pretty well, too. What the circumstances permit is a change in my priorities. If life wasn't so much fun, then why would we all be here? While it's tears me up to think about working today for something I'll be given tomorrow, I do hold some faith in that. More importantly, I can't get so caught up in tomorrow that I lose today, especially cuz it's my birthday. HA, no but I mean that for everyday.
The homeless man on the street thinks I have "gorgeous" hair, and I agree with him. There are small commonalities between us and everyone. Just the fact that we're all here, doing something, even when it feels like nothing, is enough to put us on common ground, maybe even a higher ground.
I've been roaming the country all googly eyed for a while now, and I can't wait to bring it all home.
Happy Birthday tooo mmeeeeeee.
Back to bed,
Into my dreams.
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